Literary Vegan: 2016

Friday 16 December 2016

Before I Met You

I dream about

The hopelessness

Before I met you.

Dreamland makes the space eternal.

I swim in the feel of no-one.

I wake in the need of someone.

But you're already there.

Therapy

I felt

The ground and not

My fear.

I heard

The birds and all

Things near.

I saw

The sky not full

Of ghosts.

I knew

My mind was in

Control.

Sunday 26 June 2016

Until Now

Until Now

The muse left me.

I felt her go.

I wanted to write, yes and

Suddenly, no.

She was there -

Word fountains flew into the air

Then rained down

Silence.

Until now.

Tuesday 14 June 2016

Seaweed

The current of feeling held me

With mocking, murky hands

I thought the sky was water,

I thought the earth was sand.

I sank with every heartbeat,

Scattered bubbles of despair

That bobbed along my vision

Distorting any glare

Though the sun shone - I couldn't see

That curled around my heart

Were but weeds of make believe

A water-work of art.

There's a Tiger on my Bed

There's a tiger on my bed

A predator, aware

Of feelings -

She kills what's lonely.

There's a tiger on my bed

Danger in her stare -

She hunts

The ghosts that haunt me.

There's a tiger on my bed -

Even in sleep prepared

To keep

My human company.

Adult

The best thing about

Being an adult

Is chocolate for breakfast

Because you can.

Monday 6 June 2016

Waves

I watched the wind ride through the grass

That turned dark green as air pushed past

In waves

To greet me.

There is no water, is no sea

But on the earth, beneath my feet

The waves

Still reached me.

Mindfulness

Close your eyes

Deep breath in

Deep breath out

Shoulders down.

What do you hear?

Sound.

Close your eyes

Deep breath in

Deep breath out

Shoulders down.

Can you hear the

Clock

Sound?

Tick.

Tock.

The sound is there but you

Were

Not.

Sunday 5 June 2016

Huntress

She's hunting for perfection.

Her claws scour the clearing.

She preys on rocks that mock enough,

The layered landscape fearing.

She's poised, and posed, as queen.

Her paws perfectly hiding
The dirt that dared to cross her lair,
To play with in her timing.

She's alert, always aware,
Her senses ever feeling.
She never sleeps this huntress feeds
On imperfection's being.

Night lights

I sit within a diamond

Constellation of house stars;

Made of fairy lights and candles

And gold glitter in glass jars -

A man-made galaxy

Uniting night and sky outside

With those who feel the safest

Dreaming their ideas, inside.

Monday 30 May 2016

OCD (2)

My room outside me is a mess,

I crave order inside my head;

My brain plays

Jigsaw games

Over and over

To find the sane,

Peace.

No bones in me are broken,

My sense of self is stolen;

Invisible dice

Make me think twice

Odds and Evens

Wrong or right

Thoughts?

Disorder tries to confine me -

It's not about 'neat and tidy'

But fearing

Everything

Obsessive compulsive

Questioning,

Doubt.

Animal Rhyme

What do you see in the field?

A beast that needs to be killed?

Or claws and fur that can feel,

As you do?

What do you see at the zoo?

Walking handbags and leather shoes?

Or curious creatures like you,

As longing?

What do you see on the farm?

Milk, breakfast and yarn?

Or eyes that look back in return,

At you too?

White

The calmest colour is white.

I've craved it all my life.

And in this moment, white

Ceiling, bed and fur quiet

My mind, I hear my breath

Unwind into calm beneath

The white.

Winter

Turning inwards, back against the cold,

Crushing leaves I proudly used to show.

Summer seems surreal, so long ago,

Withered branches hidden under snow.

What have the darker days and nights begun?

Running to the place that I can't run.

Even so I'm looking for the sun,

That state I knew, I know, that I came from.

Therapy Cat

Therapy Cat

When there is panic inside my head,

You are calm, curled up on my bed.

When thoughts unpredictable alter my mood,

You are like clockwork asking for food.

When things are difficult to do that day,

You bring me a toy so I have to play.

When I sit overwhelmed by thoughts,

You sit with me, just because.

OCD (1)

Everything is magnified,
Molecules electrified,

In earth, in air, personified
As being something more.

And thought contests for speed of light,
No sound, a sudden inner sight

Compulsion to do what is right
Or what feels secure.

Whispers whirl to hurricanes

And dust becomes vast desert plains

All inside a mental game
To figure out the score.

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